Today I was thinking about free time. My kids are gone for the weekend, my husband took them to my mother in laws for a day or two. So be the first time in a few weeks completely to my self. Hmm…. What to do?.. What to do? I normally work from 730-430 sometimes I have to get up as early as 430am and stay till 9pm then I come home play with the kids until they go to bed, normally around 1130-3am (kids oldest is only 3) . With that going on not much gets done around or out of the house. Some weekends my mother-in-law will take one or all three of my kids for the weekend. I love this. It really helps us out. We can finally deep clean. Two weeks work of clothes washed dishes done, all trash and toys pick up. I love it. Normally every day we pick up the living room and kids room every day but like five seconds later it a bigger mess to start with. So fun, right!? Today was different, I was completely alone, just me, myself and I. So I cleaned. Best use of my free time. Everything was done in about an hour. Then… I have no idea what to do with myself. I honestly wished my kids were back home. No toddlers was yelling at me, kissing me, getting into things, no owies to kiss, nothing. I was really missing the chaos. Am I the only one? Even on date night after about an hour or so I just want to go home. I know that really bad, but my husband thinks it’s adorable. My husband is just as lost as I am. He is a stay at home dad so when I’m at work and the kids are gone, it’s just him until I get home. He uses that time to sleep and play video game. He tell me that he is lonely most of time. The time away from the kids is great for our marriage. We recently quit smoking so when the stress is there it’s THERE. Sometime we take it out on each other. Sometimes we over react to what the kids did and yell at them when it was uncalled for. It makes us feel guilty. We always fix is though. We talk to each other, we apologize, and everything is ok. Every time though as soon as my tiny stress makers leave I get a little depressed. Will this pass as they get older? Is this normal?